Eating for no good reason

Actually, I am currently in the process of trying NOT to eat for no good reason (is that a double negative??).  I did pretty well today but had quite a bit of sushi for dinner. No wine tonight- I decided to pour diet cream soda in a wine glass. I swear it is the act of holding the wine glass that is most comforting sometimes. Not even the actual wine! So I made it through that and even went to my first regular flow yoga class (vs. the restorative yoga) after my broken toe incident back in October, but now I face the real challenge. I ate a solid dinner (sushi) so I am not hungry but really want a bag of skinny pop popcorn. FOR NO GOOD REASON! And maybe some chocolate chips. Again, FOR NO GOOD REASON.

I bought a book called, "50 ways to soothe yourself without food" and have started to read it. Great so far. I am now aware that any emotional eating I do can affect my children and their long term eating habits. Ugh. All the more reason to figure this out. I need to be a good model for them.

2015 is going to be MY year. I need to focus more on me so that I can be a better mom to my kids. I need to model healthier choices. I have a good feeling about 2015, but hopefully that won't change. I remember having a bad/unsettling feeling on New Year's Eve about 2006. I should have known it was going to be a very difficult year. My cat was diagnosed with terminal cancer in February. I lost my kitty soulmate and my grandma within weeks of each other in March/April, then I got pregnant for the very first time in over two years of trying only to find out a week later that I was going to miscarry. A devastating loss. That was July. I was pregnant naturally by some miracle the following month but lost that baby at ~ 7 weeks after much concern about an ectopic pregnancy. A month later I started having horrible anxiety attacks and then found out I had uterine polyps and would need to have surgery to remove them. So I ended the year with a laparoscopy a few days before Xmas. It was one of those years you couldn't wait to say goodbye to. I know there could be other years like that and I dread them. I am just hoping for positive changes in 2015.

Oh, and I was 151.3 lbs this morning. The right direction...

If I don't get a chance to write tomorrow. My wish for anyone and everyone is a happy and healthy new year!!!