Back again. Got a little sidetracked. The new year started with such unbelievably sad news. One of my good friends from college lost her husband in a car accident. I still can't believe that this could happen to someone as sweet as my friend. It was one of those times where I just knew I needed to fly home to hug her. Nothing else would do. I took the kids (fun) and we flew back to where my parents live and stayed with them. My dad and I drove in a blizzard to the funeral. I have never cried so much at a funeral. It was a difficult week. We were at least able to see my parents and brother and a few friends. We had to eat lunch and dinner out every day because my parents were in the middle of a remodel so we had no kitchen or laundry. Surprisingly I cam back weighing only a pound more. I think that this is because we weren't able to spend time snacking (since we couldn't get into the kitchen!). After I came home I was highly motivated to get back to the gym. I went to walk on the treadmill. I did 2.99 miles at 3.7 at 4% incline, which felt great mentally however it proved to be too much for my previously broken toe (from October!!!). The podiatrist feels that I may have torn ligaments based on the way I fell. The bone at the base of my big toe is swollen and I am scheduled for an MRI tomorrow afternoon. I should know something by Wednesday when I see the podiatrist again. I hope.
In the meantime I have felt horrible and bloated and gassy and I get nauseous every time I eat. Not sure if it is some sort of intestinal bug or what. Started to feel better last night and am less bloated today. My system has been off for a couple months now, which I am not used to.
Oh, and I hit 153 lbs!!!! W.T.F.
I can't figure out why I am so much less motivated than I was in my 20s and 30s. Maybe it is because I am tired and have toddlers and work outside the home. Maybe I am getting old. Maybe I am more content in some ways now and don't rely as heavily on my physical appearance? I don't know. I just know that I struggle with food right now and I hate that:(
Roadblocks:
1. Broken toe
2. Lack of a regular schedule
3. Lack of meal planning skills
4. Lack of calorie counting skills, even with MyFitnessPal.
5. Lack of a plan.
6. Poor sleep habits.
7. Love of all things chocolate.
8. Love of all things wine.
This post is more of a ramble. If anyone out there who stumbles across this blog has any helpful tips, please share!!! Clearly I need help. This was soooooo much easier way back when!!
I did buy Jillian Michaels 30-day shred for beginners. Also found some exercises in Prevention magazine and bought exercise bands so I can do them. I need to put workouts on my schedule like I did way back when and figure out a reward for myself.
Oh, I have been trying to lift hand weights during bath time when the kids can help me count. Please tell me that I can be thin again!!
For now, I need to get my foot figured out. I will try at least one workout this weekend. I may even try yoga on Saturday if I can. We shall see...
M
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