I stayed under my calorie goal and it wasn't so bad! Except that it may be harder tomorrow. We will see... I had two epiphanies today that seemed to help:
1. It is ok to feel a little hungry! I think I got into the habit of eating every time I felt the slightest bit of hunger. (Or stress, boredom, etc.). I am not letting myself get so hungry I could eat my hand, but a little hunger is fine.
2. According to my BMI, I am .5 points over normal which makes me OFFICIALLY OVERWEIGHT!!! This does NOT sit well with me! I am better than that. I can't believe I let myself get to this point:( why can't I maintain my health for ME??? Why am I so good at maintaining it for others? Shouldn't I love myself as much as I love THEM? I was able to restrict food so well while breastfeeding when my daughter was allergic to everything.
Also, I caught a glimpse of my reflection in the window when I took the kids to the library and I looked sooo FAT! My arms, always my best feature, are HUGE!!!
More later... I need to go to bed. Sleep really affects my mood which could in turn affect my eating tomorrow...
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